It’s as though by repeating the words they will somehow become real. The words will solidify, and the full and truly horrific reality of this tragedy will penetrate. But somehow the mind – or is it the soul? – Protects me, for if I am to feel the full impact of these words will I continue.

Boy is the searing and beautifully written memoir by a mother, Kate Shand, whose son took his own life one afternoon when no one was looking.

John Peter, known to most as Boy, was only 14 years old when he made the tragic decision to hang himself. He left behind a devastated family grappling to not only cope with the overwhelming loss of a beloved son and brother, but to come to terms with the incomprehensible and unbearable choice he made that afternoon on 31 March 2011.

In this memoir, Kate Shand shares the horror, rage, grief and desolation of her own personal tsunami – but she also shares a story of transformation, healing and love. Ultimately it is a story of a boy – just a boy like any other – and of a mother’s survival in the aftermath of the suicide of her child.

“Can you bear to know what happens to a mother and her family when her 14-year-old son commits suicide? Are you brave enough to witness a ‘deep scream from the heart’? From the first word to the last, Boy clamps itself in your guts. Relentless in her search for answers, Shand strips herself down to the bone, taking us with her to the edge of what is bearable. A work of savage courage and honesty. I dare you to try and put it down.”

 - Best-selling author, Joanne Fedler

About the author

After completing her BA in journalism and English literature, Kate Shand married and cared for her three young children. When they got to school-going age, she worked as a freelance editor for many years until 2002 when she was offered a job in the urban regeneration sector. She managed the Newtown Cultural Precinct for a number of years and completed her Master’s in arts and culture management (heritage) with distinction in 2011 while in this position. She is now a communications manager in the housing sector.


Parameters of Book:
Sub-title: The Story of my Teenage Son's suicide
Author: Kate Shand
ISBN: 9781920601164
dPDF ISBN: 9781920601171
ePUB ISBN: 9781920601188
mobi file ISBN: 9781920601195
Size (mm): 235x155mm
Pages: 228pp
Format: Paperback
Colour: Black & White with image section
Rights: World
Language: English
Publication Date: March 2013